The road to build strong trust
Trust is both emotional and logical. Emotionally, it is where you expose your vulnerabilities to people, but believing they will not take advantage of your openness. Logically, it is where you have assessed the probabilities of gain and loss, calculating expected utility based on hard performances, and conclude that the person in question will behave in a predictable manner.
Tale of the crazy bitch
It feels as if there is a rope tightening and wriggling around her squeezing the last bit of self-control in her. She knows deep down that what she did is really wrong but she couldn't help it. It is so hard to trust. She learnt that trust is not to simply make a statement such as "Trust me" and it magically happens. Trust must be gained. Trusting someone is never easy esp if someone elses broken that fragile element before. However, the thing about trust is that it brings along a whole string of other elements that would torment your inside and make you totally uncool and ugly. She knows the complications, she knows. And so she is struggling to trust because it meant so much to her. Perhaps the fanfare explodes in her, only her, because she is afraid to lose. If only she could let go... If only things are transparent...
