I sat down with the intention to blog about year 2008. However, I ended up staring at the blinking cursor on this blank word document. Many flashbacks come and go; all jumble up in my mind. I wonder how often people reflect intently about their life. Even if they do, have they learnt from their experiences? I am not confident that I have but I am sure I grew fatter in every aspect.

365 days ago… I had a different identity. I led an entirely different life. Yet, I couldn’t remember what happened in the first four months. Goosh! The flu medicine is robbing my memory. It probably wasn’t great for people normally remember significant events. Perhaps I wasn’t trying hard enough to think back. Generally, life was kinda monotone… I did well for semester 4, attended gatherings faithfully, and had a take-things-for-granted attitude. I guess this I-don’t-care mindset made things insignificant. Sad to say, I contributed greatly to the so called downfall of my ‘previous’ life.

My world plunged into darkness half way through the year. It was an experience I would never ever want to go through again. Neither would I want anyone to experience the same thing. It was shit beyond the shit. The 3 months of insanity and pain makes me shudder at the thought of it. Thankfully I pulled through with the help of many loved ones. Some whom I knew along the way. Nonetheless, I know my fateful experience wasn’t the worst to come. I believe I could handle the rest as well, hopefully. What doesn’t breaks you, only makes you stronger, isn’t? I could finally look back and smile at my silliness. =) Apart from the occasional lingering pain (if I think of it), I declare that I have healed and moved on exceptionally well. It is certainly lessons learnt and memories stayed.

365 days later… I am still the same old Eunice but definitely different somehow or another. What an irony! Shit still happens, so does beautiful occurrences. I’ve learnt to take things easy and stay positive. Thinking… What have I done for the second half of the year? I’ve enjoyed myself everyday, went to places I’ve never been, gone partying, been drunk, done many heart thumping stuffs which I’ve never done before. On the whole, I guess life is pretty good with the ups balancing the downs. Well, I may not be the best daughter, friend, girlfriend, or student but I am still learning, still improving. I don’t know what the future may become but I will make an effort to make things work out. That’s all that matters, doesn’t?

Nonetheless, I don’t regret what happened throughout the year. Looking back, I’m glad my journey turned out this way because I believe things happen for a reason. The process whereby the once colourful path changed to black and white and then became vibrant again, practically made the whole journey meaningful. =)

Cheers to the many good things to come in year 2009!