feel-so-bad
I feel so bad for not being there for this friend whom I really really cherish. He may not say but I know it's not as easy as it seems. When he break the news to us... somehow... I notice his eyes getting a little red. Did they? erm, maybe I'm too sensitive. =( Why didn't I sense a difference in his tone when he called last week? Grr! I know he don't want to bother me with his problems but I want to be there. Come to think of it... he hardly tells us his problems nowadays. In the past, he always calls us up and go on and on. Why the change? Was it him or was it me? Anyway, talk to someone like you always do, ok? It feels better after that. Just want to let you know that you are not alone! *hug*
To add on to my feel-so-bad emotions, erm... I'm in a weird situation with this close gal friend. She reads my blog and I'm sure she understands what I'm trying to put across. So gal, although you say it's ok, I know it's not ok inside. But we are actually playing the guessing game right now... everything is not confirm right? Don't think so much and don't let this affect you. I'm glad we communicated through this. eh... the bond between us is even stronger than C-C bond... cannot cut them up with stille, suzuki, or heck reactions. okok? *love ya*
