la belle vie d'eunice

Somewhere over the rainbow (The Original)

2011-06-06T22:21:00.006+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far

Behind me

Where troubles melt like lemon drops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly

Birds fly over the rainbow

Why then, oh why can't I

If happy little bluebirds fly

Beyond the rainbow

Why, oh why can't I

Good Bye Warren's House, Good Bye Orangey Room

2011-04-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

Dear House at Warren,

Do you still remember the excitement I had when we moved in 7 years ago?

It was thrilling to decorate my own room for the first time in my life. Despite constant nagging that room is small, I managed to move from room (smallest and nearest to hall) to room (slightly bigger and furthest from hall) after brother moved out. Slowly, I grew to love my orangey room. The room that accompanied me through many ups and downs. I feel warm and cozy in there.

Not forgetting the study room where I spent nights after nights mugging, gaming, chatting, surfing, mahjonging... It is the most mind engaging place ever!

The kitchen where I tried my best to cook. The dining area where the family bonds. The living room where we watch TV and bicker with each other. The parent's room where I hardly enters. The baby/ironing/used to be my room where I seldom use anymore. The special solely used by me bathroom where it's separated into showering room and toilet bowl room. The balcony where I secretly have Korean BBQs.

You all will be missed. Maybe due to many years of bonding, or maybe because I'm not moving to somewhere better, I find it hard to bid good bye. This whole episode seems unreal. The days impending to the moving day seemed to pass by quickly. Suddenly, it's tomorrow.

My last night.

House at Warren, my home, thank you for sheltering us all these years. I will remember the memories I had in you. May the next owner be gentle and takes great care of you.

Loves,

Eunice

Perfection is subjective

2011-04-10T00:57:00.003+08:00

He is the half part of a blessed man

Left to be finished by such as she:

And she a fair divided excellence

Whose fulness of perfection lies in him.

-William Shakespeare

Bad dream

2011-03-11T07:24:00.004+08:00

The story began on an escalator with my friends (whom have no faces). We were talking about death, the inevitable. Suddenly, I had a bad feeling and decided to call Mou. Somehow we just recovered from a fight and weren't exactly on talking terms yet. Then, someone told me he died. This information could not sink in until many different people repeated the same cold heartless words: He died. I started sobbing uncontrollably.

The funny thing was there were two funerals. One at my house and the other at his. My brother accompanied me over to his house for the wake. His mother handed over a letter he wrote to me in his last moments. He wrote about photography, how one could see happy moments through lens, and there were a couple of our photos. He said “There should be angels up there. Heaven should be like ____(It is a small square grey patch of nothing in the dream!). I don’t know and I am scare.” He went on to tell me to stay positive and strong no matter what life brings in the future. Then, he wrote about injecting himself x amount of pain free drugs every half an hour until it reaches 5mg. “When you hit 5mg, life would become meaningless to you from this moment on.” Abruptly, the letter ended here. I read it twice in my dream kept thinking why didn’t he write something like he loves me, move on, etc. Or there were hidden meanings to what he wrote. I even convinced myself that he probably was in too much pain to write a proper good bye letter. However, somehow I knew what he was trying to say. (I could subconsciously use my brain to think about such stuffs! Goodness!) Despite his intentions to lessen my sufferings by not informing me about his impending death, I felt really upset for not being there by his deathbed. In the process of mourning over his death, I woke up to a familiar dark room crying.

The feeling of losing someone was so intense and real in the dream. The last time I felt this way was when he-who-must-not-be-named left. Thankfully it is just a dream. But why are the emotions so real? I could not help it but cry real hard. Can we all not die or lose people we know? Damn emo because of the dream. It is about 7.30am and he should be asleep. I wanted to call him so badly.

On the other hand, isn’t it amazing that one could actually analyze situations in the dream and live in it? It’s like another world in there.

Endings are Beginnings

2010-12-31T00:43:00.001+08:00

2010. The start of a new century is coming to an end in less than 24 hours. Cracking my brain real hard to think of all the significant events. I guess my year is either not that eventful or it's a sign of aging. Remembered the first time I stepped into the dialysis centre overwhelmed with tears. Remembered close friend's wedding. Remembered how funny yet touching it was when Adam took his first few steps. Remembered how sucky my first job was and the vast difference in my second. Not forgetting, this is the year the weighing scale finally reads 45. (It has since moved right. damn.) Definitely recalled the plans we had, the first blue box, and the first oversea trip together. Also, this year marks the end of living in a condo. Yup! I'm feeling contented on the whole. I guess I grew up quite a bit too. =) I sincerely hope everyone have a blessed and safe 2011.

To a fabulous year ahead! Loves.

We have a sweet sweet plan!

2010-12-09T23:27:00.005+08:00

Having plans about the future is like decorating a dull winding road with flowers, rainbows and butterflies!

Events to look forward to (till the end of 2010)

2010-11-01T00:37:00.003+08:00

Public holiday 5 Nov
Family chalet 9 Nov
Public holiday 17 Nov
My birthday 21 Nov
Boyfriend last paper 26 Nov
Brother birthday 2 Dec
2nd Year Anni 17 Dec
Bangkok trip 22 Dec
Christmas 25 Dec
Boyfriend birthday 26 Dec
New year countdown 31 Dec

Things I did last holiday (18/10 - 31/10)

2010-10-31T22:00:00.005+08:00

Packed wardrobe
Packed study room
Completed The Big Bang Theory tv series
Visited friend's family
Gym
Did a mindmap
Chilled at Brotzeit with ex-colleagues
Yum Cha with uni clique
Facial
Hair cut
Mahjong with the guys
Went back Ghim Moh for chicken rice
Accompanied the boyfriend while he do project
Chauffeur to Father, Mother, Adam, Boyfriend
Slept at 3am, Woke at 12pm
Nua
Nua
Nua
Prepare for work

I felt bored nuaing initially, then I got used to nuaing, and when I enjoy nuaing, it's OVER. Bleh! Quite a good nuaing holiday. Just realize there wasn't Shopping in the above. Maybe it's time for a Things to look forward to list.

Alrighty! Time for a new beginning~

Healthy- for you and them

2010-10-28T23:27:00.002+08:00

Most of us are lucky to be born healthy. We have a choice to stay healthy but we tend to forget about it. The environment, food, late nights, etc stresses our body in ways we never expect. Like a machine without proper care and maintenance, it will breakdown someday. When the day comes, we are filled with fear, remorse and regret. We wish we could hit the reformat button. Unfortunately, human bodies are designed differently from cold hard machines.

Sometimes it is inevitable to fall sick. Sometimes it is inevitable that your organs fail. If we are fortunate enough, there is a second chance. It may not be perfect like before but we are still alive. Will we cherish our new lease of life? Or are we going to forget after awhile?

Some people do, take things (health in this context) for granted.

To these people, please spare a thought for those who cares. They, who are concern, are occupied by a zillion thoughts about you. Do you feel any discomfort? Do you have appetite? Can you sleep well? How to improve the situation? Where to get money for bills? How to get transport? Blah blah blah… Please don’t be selfish and inconsiderate. The moment you let someone into your life, you are not living for yourself anymore. The very basic thing you can do for them is to live your life well. Let them have a peace of mind.

Farewell BTI and Hello Holiday

2010-10-19T12:44:00.003+08:00

Good Afternoon World!

Today marks the start of my 2 weeks holiday. =) I'm starting work in Nov as a researcher at Singapore Eye Research Institute. Not sure if it's the best option but I'll take a step from here.

So, I bid good bye to my former job as a facility and safety admin officer. Farewell at BTI was not much of a fanfare. HR manager brought red wine last Thursday for tea break. Unlike the previous farewell for WoonLi, we had peanut biscuit instead of mooncake to go with the wine. My manager said this would probably be the last and only place where I get to drink alcohol at work. The ah lian aunty from HR kept refilling my glass because she wants to see 快乐宝宝. Unfortunately for her, I only got drowsy. Both safety and facility managers were on leave on my last day, so they wished me all the best on Friday and that made me feel a little emo.

Yesterday morning was my last day. I spent the morning clearing the computer, uploading stuffs into the hdd, and getting everyone else to sign my clearance form. Finally I'm not the one signing other people's clearance form. hehe! I bought liquor chocolate for corp admin. Hope they like it. Some of them gave me a card with their well wishes. It was sweet of them. They were all out for lunch when I quietly made my way out feeling emo yet relieve. I left for Outram to meet my new boss, sign contract, and did the pre employment body checkup which took the whole afternoon.

Now, I'm all set to enjoy my holiday! I thought I could happily sleep in... until I heard loud banging against my door at 8am. Someone screaming at the top of his lungs repeatedly: "姑姑！姑姑，Eunice!" OMG! I forgot to lock my door. The next thing I know, someone is crawling all over me, pulling my hair and beating me. Thanks Adam, you just remind me how much I dislike kids. Eunice, Morning, Sleep, and Kids doesn't go well at all. *shake head*

Nothing is going to take my holiday away! Embrace the holiday!

I will survive

2010-08-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

I have decided not to blog about my job due to sensitivity issue. I feel tired having to explain it again as well. In a nutshell, I am leaving. =) For the better of tomorrow. To me, I feel that this is a period that is quite tormenting. But I know in the eyes of others, this is just another episode that is not as bad as what they see. After all everyone has their own perspective, everyone take things differently. So really, just let me ramble and fumble my way through. And I thank you for your support and advice. =) We can party when I get my sunshine back!

These days while I was going through a tough time, I happen to come across a couple of friends who are also going though a bad phase. Only we are fretting over different issues. I may not understand how it feels to be thrown with such shit but I know it suck to be in deep shit. I can imagine what you guys are going through. Remember what doesn’t kills us only makes us stronger… We are 打不死的蟑蝻!

“Life is 10% what you make it and 90% how you take it”
“If you cannot change fate, change your attitude”

My most expensive asset

2010-08-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

Finally bought a macbook pro after procrastinating for a few months. There goes a month pay. The next thing to buy is a 2+1 speaker as well as a cable to connect the laptop to the tv. Then I could bom bom pow in the room. The only down side so far is I couldn't watch funshion with mac. =( But it's okie I've downloaded windows 7. Waiting for someone to provide installation service. Hehe! Very happy with my purchase. And my desktop is now taken over by my mum who (I think) aims to finish watching all the shows in funshion. No more 我要看！给我用！fights anymore. Happy and Satisfied. Mac rules!

Sweet Boyfriend on Our 1year 6months Anniversary

2010-08-17T17:17:00.004+08:00

One fine evening on the 17th day of June 2010, I spotted a battle scarred matrix huffing and puffing its way up the 45 degree hill at Biopolis. It stopped outside my office and I happily glided towards it. Once I settled down in the car, the boyfriend quickly grabbed the surprise from the backseat and flashed it in front of me with a tint of shyness. I gasped in excitement as I received the bouquet of flowers. One… Two… Three… Four… I began to count. There were 11 red roses decorated with other pretty little flowers. I started bombarding questions like where, when, how, and why while we made our way to Anchor point TCC for dinner. I kept smiling throughout our journey and suggested bringing the flowers around to hao lian which was rejected by him. The boyfriend told me to google the meaning of the number of roses. The so sweet meaning is so goose bump sweet. Ha ha! Don’t know for real or not. After yummy TCC pasta with smoke salmon and roe, we shopped around then headed home.

Once home, mother excitedly asked a stupid question: “Who gave you the flowers?” which was replied by my senile father in a omg-this-is-a-ridiculous-question tone: “Of cos is her boyfriend lah!” But she kept asking until I personally say it out loud. *smack forehead* Guess she was just as excited as her daughter. Afterall it was the first time I brought home a bouquet of flowers. No more bandung anymore! =) So this was a moment to remember – My first bouquet of roses.

Our first DIY Tiramisu

2010-08-13T21:57:00.004+08:00

Ingredients:

1 glass of kopi-o gao

2 tablespoons baileys

2 large eggs (separate yolk and white)

1 pinch of salt

180g sugar (divided into 2 portions of 90g each)

250g mascarpone cheese

12 3.5in ladyfingers

Unsweetened cocoa powder

Steps:

Beat egg whites with a pinch of salt until they begin to get stiff. Beat in 90g of sugar until stiff.
Beat egg yolks with remaining sugar until stiff and light-coloured. Beat in mascarpone until lump free.
Fold in beaten egg whites to beaten yolks until fully incorporated.
Put a layer of this cream into each vessel.
Mix together kopi-o gao and baileys. The mixture should taste strongly of alcohol.
Submerge ladyfinger in kopi/bailey mixture until completely soaked. Squeeze out excess mixture so that it is not too saturated.
Layer each ladyfinger over the cream in each vessel.
Repeat alternate layering of cream and ladyfinger as you desire.
Top with cream, cover, refrigerate at least 4 hours. But preferably overnight.
Shake powdered cocoa generously on top before serve.

Ta da! Our easy to make Tiramisu. The ladyfingers soak up alcohol/coffee so FAST. Our end product was too soggy. But still, effort 100%. =)

Someone who warms my heart

2010-07-29T00:02:00.003+08:00

Today, I told my friend that I do not have much close friends. She said it does not matter. What matters is who will be there with me in good and bad times until I aged. Everyone may be busy and could hardly meet. But as long as friends make an effort to catch up with each other. As long as friends continue to bitch around and show concern. They are true friends.

I am feeling happy right now because she said I am one of her close friends. Just want to let her know that I am glad that she is one of those innocent fellows I met in school. She was there through my ups and downs and I will continue to bug her as much as she bug me.

Today is her special day. I hope she receives lots of love and shine brightly ever after. Happy Birthday, close friend. =)

Prelude to Bubble updates

2010-07-27T16:22:00.001+08:00

A week ago I started noting down a list of topics to blog about. This list includes many first times. First tiramisu baking session. First bouquet of flowers received. First macbook pro brought. First Japanese buffet at Ikoi. First interview experience with 4 interviewers. First experience being backstabbed. First dad’s dialysis session. And the list gets longer. Apparently, I have not started blogging about any. I am just LAZY. But in order for you to shower your care and concern and love on me, I will blog about those listed… before August ends. Have to stop here because it’s time for tea break. LOL

Wedding bells are ringing

2010-05-25T20:59:00.007+08:00

23rd May 2010 marks the start of a chain of close friends wedding. Invitations that address "Eunice Goh" instead of "Mr Goh and family" will start pouring in over the next few years. It's a season to get teary and emo. And maybe kan chiong when I'm no where near there.

Although it is every woman's dream to get married and live happily ever after, the thought of going through these emotional process scares me. I realise I get teary at weddings the moment the couple starts walking down the aisle. Because it looks exactly like the last page of a fairy tale. I begin to wonder how can I handle this when it's my turn to be the princess. Somehow I just wish that day never comes. Or maybe I could just skip the whole emo part. Yet, some part of me still secretly hopes to be the main character someday.

That special Sunday was, to date, the most touching wedding I have ever attended. Maybe because it involved both of my friends who plays a significant role in my life. Or maybe because I witnessed parts of their ups and downs. There were laughters and tears and bags of blessings. Not forgetting it was my first time walking down the aisle as a bridemaid. Love was in the air and they looked blissful. All in all it was a very memorable event. I am so happy that they have their happily ever after.

Till my fairy tale wedding...

What should I do next?

2010-05-18T10:55:00.007+08:00

I AM SO BORED!!!

Literally staring at the screen. Cannot watch youtube due to my unflavourable seating position in the office. Managers keep walking pass me from behind. I finally understand why those gals put mirror in front of them. Initially I was thinking why are they so ai mei. Hahaha!

How to endure 5 months? Seriously. Super no motivation at all. Everyday still need to climb the bloody steep hill. Sometimes I wonder why do people hire degree graduate to do something that 'O' level graduate can do... Maybe I didn't think properly before accepting this job. So what if you are a company that has high branding... pui. =X Quite disappointing as a first job. But it's okie. Things will get better. I'm out of here soon...

So as you can see... too busy also cannot, too free also cannot.
Kind of hard to find something that has an equilibrium.
But there will be a job out there that suits us.
Keep finding...

Approaching life in a different perspective

2010-04-13T01:30:00.005+08:00

Recently, I read a convocation speech by Adrian Tan from a friend's blog. It was a different kind of speech that one would expect to hear. In case you are wondering who on earth is Adrian Tan, he is a laywer and the author of The Teenage Textbook. Some famous guy apparently.

He said our lives are pretty much over when education ends. Since the saying goes "learning is a lifelong process" and the end of education means we are done learning, we are done living. (He believes the saying is a gimmick for teachers to have customers. After all they are in the learning business.) Given that life has ended, we are free to play. We should pursue something that we enjoy so much so that we would do it for free. This passion will energize us and becomes an obsession. This should be how we embrace a new fulfilling life.

If not, we are working. And the most important point to note is we should never work. "If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there's nothing left." This strong statement makes me think about people around me. Sad to admit, some of them are extinguishing.

Adrian also commented that people are working hard for more than half their lives so that they could enjoy the small remaining portion in comfort. However, many of them never reach that part. You never know when you are going to drop dead. Maybe years, weeks, days, or hours later. Damn! Life is never fair. We never get what we want. As much as we want to play, we often are left without options. If you have already found your obsession, I'm happy for you. But if you don't have a chance and is working, try to find something to keep the flames burning! Remember to enjoy every moment that is left of you.

Another interesting thought of his is not to settle ourselves with life expectations set by average people. Just because everyone else is diligently following a set of rules to live life, doesn't mean we have to aspire to be them. Like we are told to find high pay jobs, how much hours to work, responsibilities, etc.

Moreover, he said being someone nice is easy but it simply categorizes you into the average group. So he believes we should aim to be hated. Think about it, great figures around the world are hated by at least one person. They are not as accommodating as nice people and they hold strong convictions. Yet, they are not evil. They are just doing what they love to do. Thus, be hated is a sign that you are successful. But most great figures don't have good endings. Everything comes with a price, doesn't it?

The last advice he gave is to love someone. Not be loved. Bringing along with loving someone come admiration, attraction, learning, and happiness. You will inspire to be better in every way. It is easier to find a reason not to love someone than to love someone. Acceptance, therefore, is important. However, people sometimes voice out what's wrong. Does that mean they can't accept you, hence, doesn't love you? Or they just hope to improve things for the better? It is tacky to decide, isn't it? Acceptance is hard work. We have to work hard on it. Perhaps like how he put it, when the face is less important than the brain and the body is less important than the heart, you have found someone to love.

No matter what aspect of life he is talking about, no matter how much you believe his interesting/weird theories, he put his point across... like how I keep hearing this word in gossip girls, Find Your Muse! And Enjoy!

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T12:05:00.004+08:00

Dear Santa and Loved Ones,

Thank you for a fruitful year! From the minute I became gu gu to the hours donned in long blur robe to those days roaming in kangaroo land to spending months staring at the four walls, losing sight of the road ahead... Thank you, I've experience a great deal! Without you, my dear ones, there won't be laughter and joy! May life gets better and the new year flourish into dozens of dreams come true!

Love,
Eunice

The first and must-buy tee for Adam

2009-12-01T14:28:00.002+08:00

By: Bai Juyi

2009-11-23T21:47:00.008+08:00

Talks about unpredictable feelings.

Like dreams that comes and go.

Like clouds that disperse when the wind blows.

Many things are unpredictable in life.

Example, love.

MOGU is the best

2009-11-14T20:34:00.003+08:00

Sigh... My Mogu Dog 'died' today. He has been with me for the past 6 years, sharing my tears and joy. He is the softest, most comfortable, most huggable pillow. Yes, you read me, he is a pillow. I found hundreds of tiny mini beans oozing out from a 5cent sized hole. Each bean is only the size of a grain of sugar! Can you imagine scattering a handful of it over my bed? OMG. Thinking I could easily transfer the beans into a plastic bag, resulted in one hour of squeezing and vacuuming. Now I have two bags full of white snow look alike. Time to make a proper bag for his remains. And trust me, mogu pillows are sooooooo freaking huggable. Argh! Can't find a photo to show off. Anyway, if you happen to see MOGU products in Singapore, please contact me. =~(

Ootoya=Oyishi

2009-10-13T14:49:00.003+08:00

Last friday's Urban featured a Japanese Restaurant, Ootoya, in orchard central. It started my craving for japanese food. Hence, we tried Ootoya that very night. There were quite a lot of people waiting for seats. I heard a lady said there was a large crowd during lunch time so it should be not bad. haha! Typical singaporeans. Anyway, we had pork that tasted yummylicious! It's soft and fragrant. Probably not the best but for the quality... it's value for money. About $16 for a set meal that consist of rice, soup, and veggi. Maybe change part of the veggi (read: Brinjal) to something else would be much better. haha! I was too busy eating that I forgot to take photos. If you are interested it's on the 8th floor near Ben & Jerry's. Someday soon I will definitely be back! Just hope that their quality doesn't drop. Till then, I'm craving for more jap food...

Lost, my nemesis

2009-10-12T22:36:00.006+08:00

Daddy is going for a mini operation on the hand again. The doctor inserted a chip or something into his hand to prepare him for kidney dialysis few months back. However, for some reason it's not working anymore. Bloody hell... they should have anticipated this and either bring forth the dialysis or push back the operation. I guess he's worried about it and couldn't eat much nowadays. The doctor said the loss of appetite could be due to the kidney though. Grr! Then faster do something about it lah. Make people go through the wait, anxiety, worry, and pain twice. Goverment hospital suck. Too many patients, too little resources.

Well, at least I'm useful being unemployed. Although I don't like and can't see well, I could drive them to the hospital. For the time being, have to make do with it. When I'm working, I can provide taxi fares! Sigh. Looking at the condition, do you think he has at least 6 years more? Like see me in white gown and even further like hear my kids yell ah gong? Saw on the internet that in general those undergoing dialysis have an average life expectancy of 4 years. But minus the high blood, serious diabetes, frequent soft drinks and unhealthy food... I don't even dare to start estimating. Maybe this will become the greatest regret of my life. Maybe miracles do happen.

Life is as such... you know someday someone so dear to you will eventually be gone yet the worst part is you can't do anything about it. Yes, you have to cherish what you have before it's too late. But stop saying about cherish because cherish is never enough. Although my dad and I are not close... we don't really talk to each other... I still do love him very much. If it hurts beyond imagination when someone important left (but still alive) then what is beyond the beyond when someone you love is reduced to ashes?

If I were a girl

2009-09-23T14:48:00.002+08:00

-pire

2009-09-13T23:43:00.001+08:00

Aspire to Inspire before you Expire

090909

2009-09-09T18:15:00.001+08:00

Today is a good day!
I don't know why but today is a good day! LOL

Tale of two brains

2009-09-04T01:09:00.001+08:00

Similarity in Life

2009-08-26T18:52:00.004+08:00

You put a little kid inside ION, alone.
After 10 minutes or less, you find out how does he feels...
That is how I am feeling right now.

Sianz

2009-08-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

wah lao eh! My computer is really dying. I have no luck with electronics.

Miss you, my adidas

2009-08-20T22:42:00.005+08:00

The only shoes that doesn’t give blisters and abrasion and whatever nonsense. Gone. Miles away in Gold coast. Tucked safely (or not) underneath the double decker bed. Awarded shoes long service award. Since poly day 1 till the end of my education. Torn and tattered. Good-Bye.

Revived

2009-08-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hello guys! I’m revived. HAHAHA! The medicine was strong lah. I stopped vomiting the 2nd day and could step out of the house by the 3rd. Thanks for your concern messages. *touched* hehe! All in all I lost 3kg in 2 weeks. But I can feel that it’s piling back soon. Cos I’m compiling my I-want-to-eat list!!! Wu xiang, western food, carrot cake, cha kway tiao, kway chap, nasi lemak, cha sao sao rou fan, pizza and more to come. And I haven’t buy something for myself since a looonnnggg time. Grr! But I have NO money. =(

May money starts rolling in SOON.

I am so sway

2009-08-12T18:09:00.003+08:00

The flu antibiotics gave me gastritis.
I have been vomiting every single mililitre of plain water that I drink.
I am forgetting how does rice taste.
I AM SO SWAY!
One word to sum it up - fuck.

ou pas?

2009-08-09T01:08:00.003+08:00

Annie AKA Nini - The Maid

2009-08-07T18:02:00.000+08:00

The maid did many wrong things. It got mummy so pissed off. She was literally screaming at her. Bubble’s radar flashed ‘War Zone. Do not enter the kitchen.’ Apparently, the maid threw mummy’s one and only favorite skin peeler straight into the stinko rubbish chute 6 stories down. A little check to understand the situation yielded a conclusion from mummy that the maid does not have a brain. -_- Simple things such as keep the towels there not here, put the stool there not here, have been repeatedly drilled into her head but to no avail. The maid even washed the WHOLE fan. Of cos... the fan is now far in the depth of the rubbish chute. And to my astonishment… the maid washed our laundry three times in a row because she doesn’t know how to use the washing machine. Poor clothes… Okie… my point is the detergent that can be used for 2 months is finished in 2 weeks. So anyway, today mummy (read: the super effective, efficient, cleanliness freako housewife) went crazy when she couldn’t find the peeler to peel apple skin. (Sometimes things do add up and explode.)

Also, the other day the maid asked mummy for sugar. For what? To regain energy. Then, the other other day, she got LOST washing the car in the basement. She forgot which floor we live. Haiyo… like so funny yet pitiful at the same time. Not to mention, she does a good job (so far) in ironing the clothes. Unfortunately, she is one forgetful maid who is not focus. ‘Never use brain one’ as mummy keeps repeating since an hour ago.

Sigh... I don’t know what to feel anymore. I heard Claire scolded the maid too. I feel the heartache because she is a widow with a 10 year old child who is left to grandmother’s care while the maid works in Singapore. Kind of poor thing if you think of it… like alone in a foreign country with a foreign family… don’t understand English… keep getting scolded. Duh. I just don’t like the idea of someone sitting on a tiny stool beside the washing machine munching on meals.

(Nini is now playing with Adam. Does she even knows or cares that mummy is pissed? Mummy, on the other hand, is complaining to everyone. Shooting people who steps on the red line. On days like this... Daddy and I know we should just keep our mouth shut tight tight and listen.)

37.7 degree celsius

2009-08-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

I am SICK with H1N1 alike symptoms. =(
Not H1N1… yet.
Went for the first interview with fever at Singapore Turf Club.
Busted because I don’t want to work weekends.
Too bad horse racings are on weekends.
Didn’t even manage to reach the level where they ask technical questions.
Damn.
Spent the night reading on HPLC and GC.
Still think I didn’t master the theory well.
Gonna spend some time understanding them.
Saw a few NUS friends at the interview.
Hahaha… We are all fighting for the same job.
Good luck girls.
I am out... I hope you are in.
Feeling kind of faint now.
Shoulders aching like mad.
I hate being SICK.

Melted

2009-08-02T19:28:00.001+08:00

I am warning you

2009-07-28T19:46:00.001+08:00

You have 2 more days to call me

CALL ME !!!

Recite the mantra

2009-07-28T02:00:00.004+08:00

Thou shall not take things for granted
Thou shall be appreciative
Thou shall not have expectations

*Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory*

Family Photo

2009-07-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Today is a happy day! Simply said. Not because I found a job neither because I won 4D but because I fulfilled one of my dreams. The Goh family finally has their family photo taken at Broadway Studio! =)

We were greeted by a lot of people inside the shop. Apparently, every family was taking their family photo. I saw many NUS, NTU grad with their different colour hoods. Before I could settle down, the aunty with curly hair and hot red top quickly pulled me to a chair so she could proceed with my make-up. She is pro loh… brush brush here and there and transformed me into a prettier young lady within 5 mintues. Hahaha! They even gave Adam a baby mortarboard. Too bad, Adam mood swing. He kept pulling it down.

What baffled me most was this… no photo taking with your own camera inside the shop unless you use your handphone. What kind of theory is this… I was stopped by a lady after snapping 2 photos with my 5 MP canon digi camera. So meaning to say… it’s time to get a more than 5 MP camera photo. Much more useful than a digi camera in this kind of situation. In contrast, you can’t take any photo inside the studio. That makes more sense lah.

After walking up and down scrutinizing all the photos surrounding the shop, Mummy chose the gigantic wall size instead of the small table top one. While I chose a 8R photo size which I think is sufficient. Come to think of it, we should have gotten one size smaller for the family wall photo. It feels weird hanging our huge faces on the wall. I hope you guys don’t get this idea “Welcome to the Goh’s family museum”, the next time you visit my house.

Anyway, we took a couple of shots and then it’s my turn to go solo in front of the camera. I smiled and smiled to different settings and backgrounds. The whole photoshoot ended in an hour. After which, we headed back home. Tired and stuffy in formal wear. I forgot that the photos will cut off before our leg level and I wore heels. Grr! But the photographer still added about 3 thin bricks to make me taller. All because brother looked like a judge in his graduation gown. Think uncle KFC in graduation gown and a mortarboard. LOL

We will be getting a set of 3R photos to choose the perfect two for the size that we decided. I am sure everyone will look perfect. Haha! They say can bring home to choose but have to return those that we didn’t choose. Weird. I shall bring home to scan all into the computer! *evil grin*

Post the photos up after I’m done with my evil deed. Hahaha!

It has been 7 months

2009-07-17T00:11:00.003+08:00

Freckles by Natasha Bedingfield

2009-07-15T02:10:00.002+08:00

I used to care so much about what others think about
Almost didn't have a thought of my own
The slightest remark would make me embark
On the journey of self doubt
But that was a while ago
This girl has got stronger
If I knew then what I know now
I would have told myself don't worry any longer it's OK

'Cause a face without freckles is like a sky without the stars
Why waste a second not loving who you are
Those little imperfections make you beautiful, lovable, valuable
They show your personality inside your heart
Reflecting who you are

Who you are

I wondered if I could trade my body with somebody else in magazines
Would the whole world fall at my feet?
I felt unworthy and would blame my failures on the ugliness I could see
When the mirror looked at me
Sometimes I feel like the little girl who doesn't belong in her own world
But I'm getting better
And I'm reminding myself

Reflecting who you are

When the earth is still rotating

2009-07-14T18:02:00.001+08:00

I AM SO BORED
I NEED A JOB

Am I normal to feel this way?

2009-07-13T00:49:00.003+08:00

Gals appreciate details

True or False?

If you, my dear blog readers, are reading this... I am absolutely sure that you won't understand what the hell am I writing about. In any case, just answer the above question. =) That will do!

Few months ago...
I think it's weird that I had a strong feeling that it will be given to whoever. I didn't ask because I know the answer is not what I wanted to hear.

Today...
I suddenly thought of it and a sudden rush urged me to ask. Whoa! Damn. I was right. Initially I wasn't happy about it because the idea suck. Then, it totally amaze me how spot on I was. The power of inner sense. LOL. (Anyway, I swear I didn't ransack stuffs... in case I wasn't trusted.) Well, on the whole I prefer to know. As for what is claimed, we shall see...

Commencement 8 July 2009

2009-07-11T14:46:00.007+08:00

'Feeling gratitude and not expressing it, is like wrapping a present and not giving it.' Therefore, I would like to take this opportunity to Thank my family, boyfriend, friends, and lecturers who have walked through this journey with me. My dear uni-mates, no matter what the future brings we have one thing in common - we once cross path at the faculty of science in NUS. I will never forget the breaks, gossiping, nagging, bio-ing guys, bus ride, library, steep hill, LT, lab among many others spent with you... and I will always remember how each and everyone of you leave a precious footprint in my heart. =) Together we shall enter the next phase of life with wonderful memories of yesterday! All well-wishes received and remained deep deep! xoxo

Butterflies in the stomach

2009-07-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

Whoa! It's tomorrow! Actually, it's nothing one... just sing the ma-le-ke-ta and fashion show across the stage and smile for the camera and it's over. But why do I feel so dreamy about it...

My first time

2009-07-05T02:33:00.005+08:00

Can you see yours?

2009-06-24T23:38:00.008+08:00

From the anime Fruit Basket:

Supposing that the "remarkable" part of a person is like the Umeboshi plum(ingredient) on an Onigiri(the triangle rice ball with ingredient at the back), the Umeboshi could be stuck to a person's back. Throughout the world, there would be various shapes, various colours, and flavors of Umeboshi stuck to everyone's back. However, since they are stuck on their backs, maybe they might not be able to see their precious Umeboshi. They'd think "I'm nothing at all, just white rice." Even though it isn't true, even though surely enough, they'd have an Umeboshi stuck to their back. If someone is jealous of somebody else, that's probably just because they can't see the Umeboshi in the middle of their back.

Thou shall not be dishearted

2009-06-24T21:41:00.003+08:00

"I'll give it a miss" was the last sentence that bid my dream job good-bye. The lady called this afternoon giving me an opportunity to an interview. BUT the bloody location of the company is at Loyang Changi!!! I almost fainted. Journey there will take at least 1.5h by train and bus. Haiz... Still thought the title "R&D Chemist" sounds cool. Then the company produces wipes, mask sheets, sachet products, etc... maybe can get free baby wipes leh... hahaha! okie, aunty nature aside, Haiz... Is it a wise choice to reject?

Little gem of innocence

2009-06-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

No particular topic for today's post. I purely wanted to show you guys some photos of the family's little innocent devil. See how much he has grown in the past 4 months. His chicken wing thighs are twice the size of my wrist!!! He's really adorable (minus the crying and poo). I love making him laugh!

If you wanna develop some love towards cute little human beings or intending to get yourself or your other half pregnant soon (kekeke!), we welcome you to 'The warren' every weekdays from 8am to 7pm. It's the perfect chance for you to gain some hands-on experience! RSVP. (Brought to you by Bubble to promote singapore's fertility rate)

Special Surprise

2009-06-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

The tortoise warrior drove me in a tortoise cart to holland village this evening for our mini 6th month anniversary celebration at Mykii (pronouned "Mee Kai"). The ambience over there is very comfy. Dim lightings, soft music... makes me sleepy though.

Both of us ordered the "Tempting Value Plus" which consist of a drink, soup, main course, and dessert. He had chicken and mushroom home baked rice which tasted like chicken rice while I had grilled dory fish steak. I preferred mine over his for its unique lemony cream sauce. The soup of the day was minestrone and the dessert was this cheese mousse cake. Not that fantastic though. I would not recommend this place to a big eater because the portion is really small. Although it's $13.80++, it's definitely not worth the money. The boyfriend, with his analytical fast fast "aunty" calculating brain, decided that Aston's steak or Tea Party's set meal plus a piece of cheesecake is much more satisfying and worth the price.

After the dinner, we headed over to Wala and were greeted by the NGAK band. Stood around for less than 10 minutes, agreed that no one would give up their seats, and strolled towards our tortoise cart. Me wearing a blur face, as usual, climbed into the car trying to buckle the seat belts when it happened. He pulled my left hand towards him and slipped a ring onto my finger! Goosh! That was so out of the blue. We are suppose to get the couple rings when he gets his first pay. I was surprised, very surprised indeed! Then my first thought was... where did he dig the money out for the rings? haha! I guess he must have thought about it long and hard before purchasing them. He caught me smiling to myself on the way home when I was replaying the scenes in my mind like a dvd player. hahaha! So pai seh. And my favourite was when he said "the ring will remain like that forever". (That's due to the wolfram material which they claim to be scratch and wear resistant.) =) I'm one happy girlfriend.

Then we slacked the night away... and talked about stuffs. I'm glad he understands. Somehow he made me see things in another perspective. Yup... I've been improving lah. Letting him know feels good, unexpectedly. Perhaps it's not that bad afterall. =) Still, I'm a happy girlfriend.

Short Hair Craze

2009-06-14T13:59:00.003+08:00

Maybe someday I should snap it off until...

Or maybe this...

And Moumou will grow this...

Ms Michelin!

2009-06-10T18:26:00.001+08:00

The road to build strong trust

2009-06-06T11:05:00.006+08:00

Trust is both emotional and logical. Emotionally, it is where you expose your vulnerabilities to people, but believing they will not take advantage of your openness. Logically, it is where you have assessed the probabilities of gain and loss, calculating expected utility based on hard performances, and conclude that the person in question will behave in a predictable manner.

Tale of the crazy bitch

It feels as if there is a rope tightening and wriggling around her squeezing the last bit of self-control in her. She knows deep down that what she did is really wrong but she couldn't help it. It is so hard to trust. She learnt that trust is not to simply make a statement such as "Trust me" and it magically happens. Trust must be gained. Trusting someone is never easy esp if someone elses broken that fragile element before. However, the thing about trust is that it brings along a whole string of other elements that would torment your inside and make you totally uncool and ugly. She knows the complications, she knows. And so she is struggling to trust because it meant so much to her. Perhaps the fanfare explodes in her, only her, because she is afraid to lose. If only she could let go... If only things are transparent...

Greetings from Melbourne

2009-05-29T14:43:00.007+08:00

I miss everything in Singapore... esp chicken rice, short sleeve tops, shorts, my bed, my toilet, my mum's nagging and moumou. 20 days of out-alone is enough to change my regretful mind about the internship 3 years back. I'm glad it didn't go for it. haha! 5 more days and I'm home and I don't want to go to aloha chalet! God bless!

Oh... by the way, say hello to the fresh graudate! *winkwink*

I'm flying !!!

2009-05-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

whoa!
Busy and worried yet excited at the same time.
Something in the distant doesn't feels right...
Haa! HECK!
I will leave my footprints around Aussie Land!
Till then...
*hugs*

Take the lead

2009-05-09T02:06:00.001+08:00

A Goal without a plan is just a wish.

Now... we hold in our hands one of the most precious gifts:

2009-05-07T01:23:00.002+08:00

Hui Du Shu by Lin Jun Jie

2009-04-24T18:24:00.006+08:00

Oh my... The Perfect Song for the current situation... LOL!

Till the very last breath

2009-04-24T14:50:00.006+08:00

I LOVE STUDYING

But... ARGH! I'm sooo damn nervous and scare... what if I screw up again?

Friday, 17th of April 2009

2009-04-19T19:37:00.001+08:00

6:45am - Alarm rang. Screamed in my head “can’t I sleep a little while more”. Dragged myself to the washroom. Dragged myself back to change. Stepped onto the weighing machine and decided to eat half of lunch. Grabbed school bag and a piece of bread.

7:15am – Stepped out of house, eyes half opened. Headed down to basement for the car. Smiled at the smooth traffic at KJE, frowned at the almost standstill traffic at AYE.

7:50am – Parked neatly beside a sport car. Ran for bus C. Climbed the steep hill and long stairs up to LT 32.

8:10am – Settled down on a squeaky chair. “Haiz” at the sight of quantum lecture notes. Beated the Zzz monster.

10:00am – Had early lunch. Shaked leg, did nothing, looked for friend during 2 hour break.

12:00pm – Climbed the same old steep hill and long stairs up to LT 32 for transition metal lesson. Gossiped with the gals while taking down notes.

2:00pm – Camera flashes every corner. Took photos and video. Realized for the last time that I could no longer criticize the lecturer or the lesson or gossip about other lecture-mates. Say “good-bye” and “good luck”. Off for bus C and the car.

That was it – The last day of school… without any fanfare, like any other day. No doubt, I can’t wait for school to end but I still feel a little emo about it. Haa! Afterall it’s really the last day… I will definitely miss schooling and the freedom that doesn’t come with the next chapter of life. (=

The day with a gold hood

2009-04-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

EVENT: Commencement
VENUE: University Cultural Centre (NUS)
DATE: 8th JULY 2009 (WED)
TIME: 3PM

Bachelor of Science - Chemistry

Goosh! He's beyond cute

2009-04-10T19:29:00.002+08:00

AWwwww... Didn't he just melt your heart?

How time flies

2009-04-05T23:39:00.005+08:00

Weeks of secret preparation and anticipation ended in merely 5 minutes with a simple kneel down ‘will you marry me’ question. I guess it’s worth the effort after seeing her reaction. I thought it's really sweet of yuling's bf to come out with the proposal thingy. In this century, how many guys actually do such things? Hehe! Sometimes I envy their stage of life although I can’t quite settle down with the thought that we are already entering this phase. Didn’t I just celebrate my 21st birthday at the function room? Hahaha! Goosh! It seems like yesterday... Really… How time flies…

Endurance Test

2009-04-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

The guys are laughing

The TV is showing

The computer is blinking

The eyes are closing

But

The clock is ticking

The day is nearing

The pile is stacking

The girl is mugging

What a boring Friday night

April Fools' Day

2009-04-01T00:27:00.009+08:00

The first of April is marked by the commission of jokes. It is not a holiday but it is celebrated worldwide. In the past, April 1st was the first day of the year in France. King Charles IX changed that to Jan 1st, however, some people stayed with April 1st. Hence, those who did are called April Fools.

One of the famous pranks:
1998: Burger King ran an ad in USA Today saying that people could get a Whooper for left-handed people whose condiments were designed to drip out of the right side. People ordered the new burger and some even requested for the old, 'right-handed' burger.

Anyway, 11 years later, I recieved the first prank by Timo... Thanks buddy!
How is it possible that you will change your 'one-way road' mindset? LoL!
I guess this day is just another day... that is 25 days nearer to the final exams. hahaha!
Chill~

Happy April Fools' Day !!!

The distant lanky silhouette

2009-03-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

It felt good to be able to say hi and smile genuinely from the heart.
Somewhat awkward to be almost stranger with someone whom you once consider a soulmate.
Still... it's a good start =)

I like these two quotes from a friend's blog:

Carrying your negative emotional baggage requires energy
that could be put to much better use
Say goodbye to it,
let it go,
and get on with your life.
- Lucy MacDonald

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
-David Harkins

I can't feel my nose

2009-03-26T10:11:00.005+08:00

The body succumbs to influenza. =(
Gonna beat them down...
I still have so many tasks to complete!!!
Nevertheless, I must recover FAST so I can go dancing tomorrow!
hahaha!

ps: you-know-who-you-are, see you tomorrow!

Power of unconsciousness

2009-03-21T12:30:00.005+08:00

Dreams

A succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep

I Hate Evil Dreams

Why dream?

The unconscious that regulates the functionalism of body treats the human conscience and help fight against anti-conscience. The unconscious gives directions, warnings and psychotherapy. While sleeping, the unconscious works like a doctor to prevent insanity in the anti-conscience that constantly tries to destroy human side. Dreams (carrying messages) are symbolic in nature because anti-conscience will not learn what the unconscious reveals to human side. Otherwise it would distort these messages and there will not be any protection against anti-conscience.

This is my boyfriend (in case you don't know)

2009-03-19T01:06:00.004+08:00

My sweetie boyfriend, shall we go TCC again someday soon soon? (=

Everyone needs a black hole

2009-03-14T12:29:00.007+08:00

Supermassive black hole at the centre of a remote galaxy digesting the remnants of a star.

The intact sun-like star ventures too close to the black hole, and its own self-gravity is overwhelmed by the black hole's gravity. The star then stretches apart (middle yellow blob) and eventually breaks into stellar crumbs, some of which swirl into the black hole (cloudy ring at right). This doomed material heats up and radiates light, including ultraviolet light, before disappearing forever into the black hole.

Ref: http://www.nasa.gov/home/index.html

Don't stop, Never give up

2009-03-10T05:47:00.003+08:00

I give up... (for the time being)
Ironically...
=~(

It’s a vicious cycle

2009-03-05T20:58:00.004+08:00

Were you ever worried about a particular problem so much that it haunts you frequently?
You know the aftermath brings anxiety yet you can’t help but to succumb to it.
How exactly can we solve the worrying part yet continue with the other part?
I wonder how many people out there shares the same experience...
God Bless

Save the future, Save the girl

2009-03-02T17:59:00.004+08:00

It feels absolutely...

2009-02-23T19:18:00.006+08:00

MARVELOUS

to know that someone important cares

FABULOUS

to be someone important

WONDERFUL

to be anticipating for something good

GREAT

to know that it's half way thru the final semester

and TOTALLY

AWFUL

to have wide feet

Founder of my troubles

2009-02-19T15:33:00.003+08:00

Alfred Werner

1866-1919

Inorganic chemist

Nobel Prize

Coordination Chemistry

Werner Heisenberg
1901-1976
Theoretical Physicist

Nobel Prize
Quantum Mechanics

Go away

2009-02-18T18:37:00.003+08:00

I can feel it coming back...
It makes me unhappy...
and uncomfortable...
and depress...
and desperate...
to feel normal...

Bubble is ill... again...

I want to Laugh without worries !!!

Chancho's GEEK party

2009-02-16T09:09:00.004+08:00

Pls vote: Who is geek-est?

Purely for humour !!!

2009-02-14T13:30:00.013+08:00

Introducing the amazing little one (part2)

2009-02-09T00:01:00.001+08:00

communication

2009-02-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

I tend to let my mind wander if everything is grey. I don’t know if you will be like that too. But I definitely dislike the mixture of rainbow colours that comes with this grayish world. That is why I prefer to blabber about everything… to keep things black and white. If you let me to…

I'm flying...

2009-02-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2009-01-25T21:09:00.001+08:00

HUAT AH!
May all 'Nu' huat me!
=P

Yummy

2009-01-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

LG KF900

This is the fact...

2009-01-23T06:44:00.000+08:00

live with it

Hang in there!

2009-01-21T16:34:00.002+08:00

Dear Computer,

Don't give up on me, ok? I still need you for 5 months... Please get well on your own soon! And I mean REAL soon... like by the time I get home. @_@ I promise to give you lots of TLC if you recover! Just don't die lah!!!

Love,
Eunice

Happy 1st day of school

2009-01-13T20:46:00.001+08:00

mood swing swing swing swing ...
any closer, i bite

真希望时间能停留在这幸福的时刻

2009-01-12T01:48:00.001+08:00

no job no money no talk

2009-01-10T14:57:00.005+08:00

Today’s newspaper had a section dedicated to young adults like us. It’s about the global financial crisis that affects job seekers around the world. The unemployment rate rise sky high everywhere. Currently in Singapore, unemployment rate of 4.1% for those under-30s is the highest among all age groups. Advisors suggest jobless souls to lower their expectations and to go for contract based jobs. Some had no choice but to accept salary lower than $2000. University students who will be graduating this year are bound to suffer. Oh my… What is the point of getting a degree? Can’t find a job… Get lower pay… Suffer in school… Grow older in the process without gaining any experience... Damn. Thankfully, the Singapore government is still plumping in money to set up chemical companies. Which means new companies, like GSK bio, will start operations within the next few years… New companies need people. Fresh chemistry graduates, you are in for more jobs opportunities! Unless they decided to employ 100% foreign talents. =X Let’s keep our fingers cross and pray for good job offers.

Something distant is telling me… maybe it’s a good time to go work and travel New Zealand or USA. Do jobs like plucking apples or brewing coffee get affected by the crisis too?

Introducing the amazing little one (part1)

2009-01-07T02:14:00.006+08:00

It's amazing how I grew from nanometers to centimeters in the past 9 months. I spent most of the time sleeping in the comfort of my mummy's womb. Now that it is getting squeeze in here, I tend to stretch and kick quite often. And I could hear many voices squeal in delight whenever I do that. I wonder how does the world looks like… and I can’t wait meet my grandparents, parents, and my self proclaim pretty aunt. Till then, I shall meet you real soon…

au revoir 2008

2008-12-31T00:00:00.002+08:00

I sat down with the intention to blog about year 2008. However, I ended up staring at the blinking cursor on this blank word document. Many flashbacks come and go; all jumble up in my mind. I wonder how often people reflect intently about their life. Even if they do, have they learnt from their experiences? I am not confident that I have but I am sure I grew fatter in every aspect.

365 days ago… I had a different identity. I led an entirely different life. Yet, I couldn’t remember what happened in the first four months. Goosh! The flu medicine is robbing my memory. It probably wasn’t great for people normally remember significant events. Perhaps I wasn’t trying hard enough to think back. Generally, life was kinda monotone… I did well for semester 4, attended gatherings faithfully, and had a take-things-for-granted attitude. I guess this I-don’t-care mindset made things insignificant. Sad to say, I contributed greatly to the so called downfall of my ‘previous’ life.

My world plunged into darkness half way through the year. It was an experience I would never ever want to go through again. Neither would I want anyone to experience the same thing. It was shit beyond the shit. The 3 months of insanity and pain makes me shudder at the thought of it. Thankfully I pulled through with the help of many loved ones. Some whom I knew along the way. Nonetheless, I know my fateful experience wasn’t the worst to come. I believe I could handle the rest as well, hopefully. What doesn’t breaks you, only makes you stronger, isn’t? I could finally look back and smile at my silliness. =) Apart from the occasional lingering pain (if I think of it), I declare that I have healed and moved on exceptionally well. It is certainly lessons learnt and memories stayed.

365 days later… I am still the same old Eunice but definitely different somehow or another. What an irony! Shit still happens, so does beautiful occurrences. I’ve learnt to take things easy and stay positive. Thinking… What have I done for the second half of the year? I’ve enjoyed myself everyday, went to places I’ve never been, gone partying, been drunk, done many heart thumping stuffs which I’ve never done before. On the whole, I guess life is pretty good with the ups balancing the downs. Well, I may not be the best daughter, friend, girlfriend, or student but I am still learning, still improving. I don’t know what the future may become but I will make an effort to make things work out. That’s all that matters, doesn’t?

Nonetheless, I don’t regret what happened throughout the year. Looking back, I’m glad my journey turned out this way because I believe things happen for a reason. The process whereby the once colourful path changed to black and white and then became vibrant again, practically made the whole journey meaningful. =)

Cheers to the many good things to come in year 2009!

>0oC pls

2008-12-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Ignorance is a bliss

2008-12-24T00:51:00.002+08:00

Fuck!
I screwed up!!!

noit-cid-dA

2008-12-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

Bubble's Dec-Jan must-watch movie list

2008-12-21T20:35:00.004+08:00

Trailers:

http://www.twilightthemovie.com//

http://www.thedaytheearthstoodstillmovie.com//

http://marleyandmemovie.com/

http://twitchfilm.net/site/view/first-trailer-for-john-woos-red-cliff-2/

Le commencement d'un nouveau chapitre

2008-12-20T20:12:00.003+08:00

I will survive - Cake

2008-12-13T11:51:00.004+08:00

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
I kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
I grew strong, I learned how to get along

And so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here without that look upon your face
I should have changed my fucking lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second, you'd be back to bother me

**Oh, now go walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tired to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh not I

I will survive, yeah
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive, yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high

And you'll see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by and you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me

**

Holiday holiday!

2008-12-05T17:08:00.002+08:00

It is finally finally…. FINALLY… over!!! The papers cui beyond description. I shall not further elaborate the terrifying hours spent in the exam hall. Just take it as it is done and over and save the last horror for 23rd Dec.

In the mean time, I have a truckload of activities and stuffs to do. First and foremost, post-exams party at topone ktv last night. It felt damn cool singing on the super duper mini platform. I had fun shaking a little here and there, playing with the lightings, and singing the usual songs. The smoke thingy that smelt like vanilla was entertaining too. Imagine a concert with smoke spurting out from the ground. Whoa! If only the room was bigger… we could have a mini performance. Well, it has been long since the gals gather and I’m sure everyone enjoyed themselves yea? Can’t wait for the Christmas party at weiting’s place… far far at the other side of the island.

Gee! I thought sleep would come by easily after the exams but it doesn’t seem so. All I want is to SLEEP well. No dreams, no nightmares, no intermittent waking, no thinking about everything when there’s nothing. Just blackout for hours. Grr! I hate insomnia. It will get better when I get more into holiday mood right? =/

Till then… It's the long anticipated H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!!! yeah!!!

The last battle of year 3 sem 1

2008-12-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

Gambatte !!!